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Stop it with the birthdays already!

 Well, it’s been a little while now but Captain Obvious had another birthday and I had yet another moment of realization, “I am grown up!”

 How does it happen?

No one can say. But I was picking dandelion bouquets one day and filling little vases with my children’s beautiful weeds the next.

I love this first picture of us as parents. You might not be able to tell except the red face but Captain was taking a breath in the middle of a good cry and Matt and I are laughing.

Who would have known that this little screaming baby would turn into a boy?

A boy who loves the Lord.

A boy who helps with his siblings.

A boy who loves animals.

A boy, whom a the ripe age of 9 is already passionate about truth and faith.

Where do they come from?

I am certainly nothing special.

After all, wasn’t I nine just last week?

 

No one has ever been able to describe it and mother’s will forever say, “I can remember my childhood like it was yesterday.”

I am in awe at the wonder of God’s creation!

Children.

Beautiful, unique, challenging, growing, child of mine.

Side note – Captain Obvious has requested a nick name change. I haven’t decided yet if I can bear to give up my “authority”. He would like to petition the blog for the name Doolittle instead of Captain Obvious.

Waaaaaa!

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More Farm Workers. Welcome Mini Me!

21 inches 8lbs 3 oz healthy boy

Three hours old. Chunky and happy.

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4th trimester-10 months and holding

A friend knitted this adorable little set for Mini Me. I hope he still fits in whever he decides to join this craziness we call life. Whoa! Did you spot all those typos? I’m going to leave them to prove how dog gone overdone I am. 🙂

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Hiking and hoping for baby to come.

 

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Last trimester and labor with a little bit of TMI

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I feel like I’m on the big upward climb of a daunting rollercoaster. Click, click, click…. When will I reach the top? I’m afraid but elated. How long will it last? My heart beats a crazy rhythm. Oooo boy, here we goooooooooo!

I’ve written a series of posts with ramblings on pregnancy, birthing, chiropractic that works for turning babies in utero and more…. It is on my mind a lot lately. 🙂 Read the 2nd Post Choices in Fertility HERE

Thanks to Captain Obvious for taking my picture.

Last Trimester and Labor-

I caused quite a stir on facebook the other day with this…

TMI! TMI! TMI! So sorry Honey. I was begging for sympathy so I told my husband that trying to get around 8mo pregnant (after 4 other pregnancies) is like walking with a sack of flour tied to his “eh-hem”. I’m so mean!

I’m still chuckling about that one. Later I apologized and waddled off but I do think he got the picture. 🙂 He hasn’t asked why I’m grumpy since.

I hate gravity right about now.

When people ask me if I’m scared to deliver, a rollercoaster is the best way I can describe it. After having my first son in the hospital, I chose to deliver the next two, unassisted at birthing centers and the next (my only girl) at home. If all goes as planned, this little dude will enter the world, safe and sound, also at home.

Does it scare me? No. Yes.

Labor is always a bit scary but so is downhill skiing, rock climbing, rollercoaster riding. With all of these you could die or you could live with massive injuries or you could have great fun doing something that gives you an incredible rush and sense of power and life!

Life! A brand new life. It’s totally worth it. I felt robbed after my first delivery. I didn’t experience the pleasure and responsibility of allowing my body to usher my son into the world. But I know that things happen and I can’t always have my way. He is no less a blessing or miracle! Since I know the difference now, I’m sure hoping to chose the natural way once again.

I had a conversation with a good friend who is an anesthesiologist about preparing for labor and educating yourself (not relying on information fed to you) on the natural birth process. We agreed mothers should know, whether or not they choose to deliver unassisted.

He said, “If more mothers educated themselves, I’d be out of a job.”

So here I go again, having my baby in the comfort and peace of my home in my six-foot claw foot tub. I love water birth!

YIKES! I must be nuts.

Want details, just ask. I’m not shy about sharing my experiences.

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Not Multitasking

Okay I have an over achievers confession. My version of NOT multitasking is narrowing my daily life down to ONE craft project, reading  ONE novel, and working toward ONE major goal at a time. Right now that is slowly writing my novel.

Did I give you an update on writing lately? I’ll have to do that.

I can’t believe how hard it is for me to stick to that! I like variety. Variety in nature, people, life…. When I read, I like to have several different genre’s on my shelf at the same time so I can pick one for whatever mood I’m in. In crafting I like to have different textures, mediums and skills to work on. How many crazies like me are out there?

The problem with this compartmented (did I just make up a word) way of living is when life happens (baby number 5 etc etc) things just won’t get done at all. I need a creative outlet though, so these things can’t go out the window altogether or I feel like I will implode.

I’ve been diligently working on only one crochet project for almost a month now but I am learning a new motif and it is messed up so I need to start over. The Crochet Bible by Sue Whiting has been so fun and inspiring. It has helped my minimal crochet abilities to grow and I am creating more things without patterns. The no pattern thing caused my blanket to turn out extremely wide. If not for the motif I would just leave it but now the flowers will be sideways or I’d have to get more yarn and I can’t do that because I found this unused bag of yarn that happens to have been made in France (oooh la la!) at my church thrift store. I’m STUCK!

My confession… I’m not starting over. I’m putting it aside and taking up locker hooking so I can work on Christmas gifts.

Do you have obsessive multitasking tendencies?

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Already 2! Happy Birthday Peewee

Wow how time flies. It seems like last week that I delivered my little girl!

It was a gloriously easy labor and delivery at home in the comfort of my own room. A complete answer to my prayers.

She took this family full of boys by thunder and stole all our hearts!

Here she is, already in a saddle at one!

She is so girl, but still keeps up in almost everything with her three older brothers. I don’t think I’ll have much to worry about.

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Her party was a hit.

She loved the Taco’s at “Gamma Woomer’s” house.

She knew just what to do and blew out her candle in one try.

I bought her a new jacket (it reminded me of the 80’s, gotta love it). Auntie gave her the barn. Grammy Donna wrapped up mom’s childhood favorite’s, Raggedy Ann and Andie and helped provide dinner for all. Cousin Janice made yet another beautiful cake (I have to say I’m addicted to decorated birthday cakes now). Grandma Loomer gave Peewee a lovely set of dishes with a talking Mrs. Potts. Peewee squealed with glee when she pulled the set out of the bag. Daddy and I and her brothers brought in the little kitchen. The first thing she did is push “Loud” away with a little scolding scowl on her face, “HOT Dooah” (that’s her name for him).

She also got to open some mail from Grammy Lynda and the rest of the fam in CA. They sent some pots and pans for her new kitchen, jammies and new earrings. Peewee has been feeding me all day in her new PJ’s and she picked a set of blue flower earrings to wear. She reminded me over and over that my food needed to “coo-off.”

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Just 3’s – About me meme

MY 3’s: Here are some details about me you may not know. (I’ll ask for 
yours at the end)   

THREE PLACES I’VE LIVED:
1.Coeur d’Alene, ID – the most beautiful city I know

2. Whittier, CA – in a barn

3. Chino, CA – in cow country

 

 THREE JOBS I’VE HAD IN MY LIFETIME:
  1. Lifeguard

2. Home Depot associate

3. Horse exerciser at a World QH show barn (that was scary)

THREE SHOWS THAT I WATCH ON TV: I rarely watch TV but when I do…

1. Law and Order

2. Dancing with the stars (while I’m reading)

3. Gray’s Anatomy (sometimes)

 

THREE PLACES I’VE BEEN THIS WEEK:
1. My friends backyard for peach tea and playing on the swing set! Yes I did 🙂

2. Bible Study

3. Wal Mart with 5 kids in tow from 6mo-8yrs

 

THREE PEOPLE WHO EMAIL ME REGULARLY:
1. Jo

2. Gina

3. Adele

 

THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS

 1. Fajita’s (without the onions- can it still be called fajita’s, Rosie? Okay, leave the onions for flavor and I can pick them out. I like the flavor, not the texture)

2. Pizza (yeah, I’m Italian, although again, I question that logic. Is pizza Italian? Okay I like sauce and pasta and cheese…)

3. Salmon with dill, garlic and lemon over rice (my husband and my Dad are awesome chef’s)

THREE THINGS I MISS

1. The house I grew up in and maybe just plain being young.

2. camping and backpacking

3. landlines 🙂 Ha!

 
THREE PLACES I’D RATHER BE:

1. This one is hard, I like where I am so I’m going to have to go with, OUTSIDE

2. Camping

3. Someplace new

THREE PEOPLE WHO WILL MOST LIKELY RESPOND:
1. Jo

2.Adele

3. Andi

THREE THINGS I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO:
1. Summer (if it ever gets here) 

2. Trip with Gina

3. When my vegetable garden is ready to start harvesting.

 

Now, here’s what you’re supposed to do… copy into a post, delete my answers and type in your answers. Then 
link back so I can see your answers too.

I originally go this as an email so if you want to do that, you know the drill!

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Ready for raw honesty? Hope, promises, life struggles and things I can’t talk about.

“I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”- Revelation 21: 2-4

I don’t like raw emotion and I really don’t like to cry so when it comes to my struggles I tend to keep myself busy enough to try and forget.

I had a wonderful talk with a dear friend the other day. We talked about ministry, family, and personal struggle. The person struggle part is something I’ve been avoiding.  The trouble is, I can only forget for a while and then the monster will start to sneak up on me from that deep dungeon I thought I buried him in. When he sneaks back, I don’t even recognize what’s wrong especially when I am isolated and completely self reliant.

Do you want to know what self reliance did for me? Loneliness, insecurity (and anyone who knows me IRL knows I hesitated to type that word 🙂 ), depression and two pretty major cases of PPD, along with general sickness and unhappiness, unrest and imbalance as I tried to keep that monster buried!

It all changed in a small group that I didn’t think I “fit into”. Afterall, I had few things in common with the older women in the group. I stayed because it was “the right thing to do” but I didn’t intend to know anyone, let alone be known.

What changed this time? Good friends, honest friends, friends who challenge me to face my fears and conquer them with Christ. Friends who won’t take no for an answer but will always be there until I’m ready. Friends who see through me, into me and really want to know me.

How in the world did I find such women? I didn’t. They are purely a gift from God that, thankfully, I choose to accept. Though I can say, I was not a quick one to break.

Because of recent conversation with some of those women, I’m ready to face my fear.

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A friend and I, walking barefoot in the sand, were brainstorming the characters for my current WIP and the conversation turned to each of us. Here we were, psycho analyzing imaginary people and we decided to try it on ourselves. So I asked her, “What is your core value? At the end of the day what does it all come down to?” Nearly an hour and several stories later we came up with a satisfying answer for her. Then it was my turn.

I discovered that my greatest desire is knowledge. At the end of the day it all comes down to what I learn, how I pursue a new piece of information or not get daunted by a task I can’t figure out. It all comes down to learning and what I can know.

I had an “ah ha” moment. That’s exactly why I’m having such a struggle. Now what to do about it?

For the next week I milled it over in my head and bounced some ideas off of Matt. “Why can’t I have balance? Why do I have to pursue knowledge to such a degree that I can hardly sleep at night for some current obsession, er’ hobby?”

He had a good thought. “It’s seasons honey, you just have to ask God to give you clear direction and allow Him to take care of the rest.”

Okay that’s all fine and dandy but I still hadn’t identified what exactly was eating at me so I obsessed for the next couple day as to just HOW I was going take this new knowledge and learn something from it so I could not be so troubled.

Hmmm, sound familiar? Maybe that’s exactly the trouble and I haven’t truly gotten to the bottom of this… this… thing. Have I?

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So, after all that set up, here goes. The thing I hate to talk about. The current thing that I must surrender or continue to get eaten up by.

My daddy’s Alzheimer’s.

All the uncertainty that comes with that. How long? How bad? And the real chance that I could easily be next.

I really thought I’d forgotten about the fear, learned to live with the way things are now. I haven’t. I’ve been in denial.

You may have noticed that I put up a ribbon on my side bar but I don’t believe I’ve ever written about it. This is my one biggest monster right now. My greatest fear. A constant source of despair and confusion. I’ve prayed and fought it and hoped for a miraculous change but I feel I’ve lost that battle. It’s real and its not going away.

Well, I don’t yet feel better but I know that I need to face this thing. According to the verse I chose at the top of this post the way to win this battle is to go ahead and loose it, then forge ahead and win the WAR!

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When I first visited Japan

I went to Japan at age 16 (Setagaya – I think – it’s Tokyo area, not far from Shibuya) to visit a girl who had come as a host student to our house the year prior. Her name is Erica. Her dad worked for a company that had work for him in the states for a while so she has excellent English. We were great friends and good pen pals so it was only natural to visit.
My first impression upon arriving was how oppressed it felt. Though I didn’t know a lot about the country nor was I that mature in my faith but I could feel the loneliness. God started to plant the seed in my heart for Japan not just my one friend.
I experienced my first earthquake within hours of arriving. It was a mini one but left a lasting impression. I felt so small. The earth literally swelled like a boat on the ocean.
While I was there I spent time in downtown Shibuya and met a tall white man who spoke only Japanese. I was so naive!
I visited Tokyo Towers where it felt like I could see the world. Mt. Fuji was beautiful that day and we could see Meiji Jingu Shrine (which we visited later). They tell me that we rode the worlds fastest elevator.
I was blessed to be in Tokyo during the time of the cherry blossoms. For almost the entire trip the trees were budding out, ready to flower. People were everywhere with picnic lunches and lawn chairs. The city we were in had a huge cemetery called Aoyama and the park was full of the beautiful trees. Here is a picture on a Japanese site. To this day the Cherry is one of my favorite trees. I was told that a strong wind or rain can ruin the buds so people wait for days to see the flowers.
I love Japan and someday I’d like to go back again.
Next time I’ll tell you about being a bridesmaid in a Japanese wedding. Maybe I can even dig out some old pictures. 🙂
Check out this blog by a wonderful Christian family living in Japan
And this website by some friends of ours planting churches in Japan

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Blog Award, you are ALL nominated.

How’s that for breaking the rules?
My friends like to tease me that I am a strict rule follower so I’m practicing being flexible…
 
My cousin nominated me for this award and I’m passing it along to any and all of you who would like to participate!
We have so much fun here I just had to share and I’d love to read your posts.
Seems a bit of a contradiction since the name of the award is Honest Crap…er I mean Scrap.
 

So now I:

a. post 10 interesting things about myself. 

b. nominate 7 other blogs.

Let’s begin…

1. I’m always cold and sleep with socks on most of the year.

2. I’m STILL trying to learn Japanese. I can read all the hiragana and am slowly learning kanji (ask me about it in a month, I need accountability!)

3. I like to fly fish, though I’m not very good.

4. I wear dresses so RARELY that my boys had to ask what “strange pants” I was wearing for choir and “how do you hold them up Mom?”

4. My favorite personal feature is my hair.

5. I really like BIG dogs.

6. I really don’t like…hmm…that’s a hard one… I can’t think of a single pet I couldn’t enjoy. Speaking of pets. I currently have 25 chickens, 2 dogs, 4 barn cats (okay, so I don’t prefer indoor cats), 2 horses and one draft -he is in a different league ;), 1 beta fish and am about to get pigs again.

7. I HAVE had in my life guinea pigs, a hedgehog, an iguana, a tarantula, snakes, praying mantis (ha), milk goats, a duck – she hatched chicken eggs for me, that was a crack up watching her try to get those little chicks to take a swim in the kiddy pool, and I think that’s all. I’ve never had a rabbit.

8. I’m mostly Italian

9. I’ve had three of my four kids naturally, the last was at home on purpose.

10. I’m the oldest of three kids but I bet you could guess that based on my paragraph of disclaimer at the top and maybe a few small other hints! Teehee!

Your turn!

Don’t forget to link back here so I know where to find you.

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